Hail the new year, lads and lasses! It is finally 2012.
The last day of 2011 was a good one. I started it with a really great, challenging yoga class (my new mat came out for the first time — and I discovered I can still get into camel pose!), followed by a relaxing afternoon at home, and then Steve and I rang in the new year (sort of) with Karen and Eddie. I made a delicious and indulgent meal and we enjoyed fondue for dessert. Too bad none of us could actually stay awake until midnight! Today we were up early for church and running some errands — I must not have gotten enough sleep (it’s sad that 7.5 hours is not nearly enough right now) so I think a nap is in my near future.
I have spent the last week or so thinking about what I want 2012 to be like, considering the huge changes coming my way. I guess you could call these resolutions, but I prefer the concept of setting intentions for the year rather than resolving to once-and-for-all do this or that. So: here’s what I’m hoping for 2012!
I’m dividing my intentions into pre-baby and post-baby for a few reasons — one being that obviously, my life will be totally different after he arrives and I don’t necessarily want to set year-long goals now that may wind up being unrealistic or unachievable later. But I do have some ideas for how I want to approach this coming year.
- Work on worrying less. I have struggled with peace during my pregnancy and I don’t want it to interfere with the final trimester. I’m so afraid to allow myself to be excited! I want to move away from the cynic in me who doesn’t want to assume the best, and become more of the peaceful zen earth mother that I really want to be. And along those lines …
- Trust my body to know what it’s doing. This means continuing to eat a healthy diet without trying to control how much weight I gain. And to trust it even when it seems to think I need to gain weight everywhere while I think it would be just as acceptable not to! Cultivate more of a feeling of compassion and respect for — and even pride in — my pregnant body.
- Stay active and fit while listening to my body. Ideally I want to continue practicing yoga 3-4 times a week up until I deliver, but we’ll take it week by week, especially as I come into my last month. Listening to my body includes not only recognizing its limits, but also honoring its potential. (See above, re: camel pose.)
- Figure out a way to get up on time on a regular basis. Heh. I have a feeling it’s going to come down to exercising a little more self-discipline in this area.
- Take it one day at a time. Do what I can while I’m adjusting to motherhood, without globalizing tough days or falling into an it’ll always be this hard mindset. One day at a time!
- Trust my instincts. I don’t have much confidence in myself as a mother at this point, and when the baby arrives I want to really be able to rely on and trust my instincts to let me know what’s right for him. And trust my husband’s instincts too!
- Stay active and fit despite the complications and challenges of my new life. I don’t appear to come from a long line of women who were back in their prepregnancy jeans after two weeks, so I’m prepared for this to take time and effort. I want to lose the baby weight (and, ideally, the weight I’ve gained since I got pregnant the first time), but more important to me is staying in good shape. Within a few months I want to be able to set up a rudimentary, flexible workout routine that includes running, yoga, and strength training. And not as something that’s an additional chore or strain on my schedule — but as a part of my daily life.
These are big goals, and they’re not really quantifiable, either, but this is where I want my focus to be this year. I think it will be a big adventure!